Holding On...

Some of you may not know this, but I’m a very sensitive person. Of course, I act like I’m not, but if you really wanted to get to know me you would understand I’m a turtle. Covered with a hard shell, but if you crack that shell I’m very defenseless. This is how I know I’m a sensitive person….I remember every broken moment of my life. I can feel the ache and taste the tears every time I think of a time where something got under the shell. Why am I talking about this? Because I just heard a song that reminded me of a broken moment.

Tonight I’m going to see ‘The Time Traveler’s Wife’ with my girls. So, to prepare for this girly event I YouTube’d the movie trailer. Before I see any movie I always watch the trailer a hundred times. It always makes me so excited to see the movie. Anyway, the song playing behind the trailer for ‘the Time Travelers’ Wife’ is the song ‘Broken’ by Life House. The first time I remember hearing this song was last fall. A friend had really hurt me and I was thinking I’m never going to forgive him. A line was crossed and I was disgusted with this friend. I remember thinking with a friend like this I’ll never need enemies. So, I’m on my way to church praying… Lord I’m done…I’m done. Then all of a sudden Life House new song ‘Broken’ came on the radio.

Because music is MY AIR and He likes to talk to me through it… I felt God wanting me to listen to the lyrics. I felt Him say to me…Melinda, you’re broken and you’re hurt but hold on. Love like I want you to love. Love how I love you. I know you’re hurt and you want to hide, but I’m holding onto you, so it's ok to hold onto him. He's begging for forgiveness and you need to give it. I remember saying..Lord you know how defenseless I am and He said to me…then let Me be your shell my little turtle. It's in forgiving others that we truly see how much He forgave us. So, I forgave my friend and I would like to say no friend has ever hurt me again, but I can’t. The fact is people that feel deeply are usually deeply hurt on a regular basis…but it’s ok because I know I have Someone holding onto me through the brokenness. It's in those times of pain that I feel Him not letting go. And maybe some people in our lives aren’t really worth holding onto, maybe some you have to let go, but maybe someday He'll lead someone to us worth really holding onto and for that it’s worth coming out of the shell. I don’t want to be a turtle in her shell playing dead. He promised He'll always be holding onto me..so I'm going to come out of my shell and try my best to hold onto Him. Isn't it the least I can do??

Attached is a video that makes my heart melt. :-)